I've gotten all my results back ( I guess? ) and im not really okay with it but I know I deserve it . Failed Dnt, Combined Science, Combined Humantites and Maths. Guess the teachers are going to see my parents ? Idk, and I dont really care either .
Initially, I wanted to complete my detention. Then councillors got camp -.- And I dont want to be alone outside staff room, so I completed one hour. Still left with one more hour to be completed when school reopens . Boring -.-
Emo-ed from last night till now. But at least, Im much better right now. Thinking over forest and also what my uncles said. Thinking about sooo many stuff at a go. I think I've got superbly great memory on sad stuff . Maybe I shld get STM for unhappy ones.
Maybe I should just give you up. I've alr guess our ending that we wont be tgt. So I might as well as give you up now. It wont hurt that much compared to if I were to let go later . I suppose great friends we can only be. But still, it's nice knowing you. Im not saying that whenever we're talking abt your ex i wont be sad. I will, but not for long . I continued chatting with you abt it. Cos that's the only topic for me to have a chance to talk to you. Uncle say you might already know that I like you but yet no actions from you, shows a sign that you aint interested in me. I guess so, I mean, what more can I ask for? I nvr thought that we could even be friends. Im happy, elated and eccentric . Im happy yet down while chatting with you. I fake a LOL but I wasnt really happy deep down. Lychee Mum, mimi and nata de coco says I shldnt give up so early . They say I havent really tried and put in any effort on letting him know. But since I already know the verdict, why should I continue ? I guess to continue being friends with you, I shld let go of all feelings for you. Trust me, I will get over you :D
Thinking back abt the past. Many says Im dumb, I dont really think so. I think I might be at times, but I know I aint that dumb. I just think that , humans are bias. They treat some nice while some badly. Im not saying that everyone treats me badly . Some do treat me nice. However, people love to think about the negative side of everything. Im not excluded . Why is it that Im always there for you when you need me but you're always missing when I needed you. Why is it that the trouble and mess you created was to be cleared up by my tears. Why is it that I always have to be like a dumb fool listening to your honeyed words which are purely lies and expect me to believe you but you dont care about how I feel at all. Why is it that when Im about to let go, you didnt try to stop me. I was disappointed. Disappointed by your actions. Disappointed by my reactions.
Away for a Malaysia fieldtrip to clear up my emotions and have fun with pals (: Away on Sunday morning till Wednesday night. And I hope my mum allows me to go out early in the morning at 4.30am :DDD
